So I’m a terrible mother and got so wrapped up in this preschool hoopla that I forgot to report Hanna has FINALLY cut her first tooth! At nearly 14 months old, it has arrived at long last. I was starting to become seriously concerned that we were going to have to invest in a baby grill and no one wants to look at that. Yippee!
Now we can slowly wean our family off of casseroles and over cooked veggies and back onto chewable crunchy food. What a relief for my mom nerves (having dreams about baby dentures), and Colin’s palette (he basically just didn’t eat dinner if it was a casserole anymore). Things are looking up around here!
I’m a true roller coaster of emotion today as we send our little boy out into the world of school for the first time.
Yes, it’s only preschool. Yes, it’s only for 3 hours 2 days a week. Yes, I took 37 pictures and am a slight basket case. But this is a pretty momentous occasion for our little family and our first born little buddy.
Walking into school
Lately I’ve been having a very rough time as a mom. Jay is a very spirited child which makes him hilarious and loving and smart. It also makes him defiant, stubborn and all out crazy sometimes. I love him more than anything but he can push me to the brink of my sanity in every possible way. It has gotten to the point where I feel like I can’t deal. I’ve been searching for a balance everywhere. Looking at going back to work, focusing on some kind of hobbies, or just straight up becoming an alcoholic. So far none of these options have really blossomed. But I am really getting to know my Pinot Noirs…
So I’ve been sort of guiltily looking forward to the “break” preschool is going to give me and the stimulation and structure it’s going to give Jay. There is no worse feeling in the world than the feeling of not being a good enough mom to your kids. And on top of that, getting to the point where you almost don’t care. I know I’ve got some of my own issues to work out in order to be able to fully embrace my role as a mom and to still maintain my own identity. I never realized how much not having a job would affect me and I’m trying to deal with that. But I’m hoping absence will make the heart grow fonder for both of us. I was so excited to pick Jay up and he was equally excited to see me and Hanna walk through the door. He is an amazing little boy. I just hope I can continue to be the mom he needs me to be. I think preschool will be a good first step in getting back to that place. 🙂
Jay had his preschool open house last night and has his first day tomorrow. We’re excited and ready to go! He met Ms Lori, his teacher, and got acquainted with the classroom. Hanna enjoyed it too and made herself right at home. He picked out a new truck lunchbox to bring his snacks in and we are going to find some family pictures to hang in his cubby. I’m so excited for this new adventure (and a little break from him two mornings a week), but a little sad too. He’s officially a big boy.
We took a nice trip up to a Colorado landmark on Sunday…St. Mary’s Glacier. The weather was beautiful and the kids had fun at the alpine lake. It was a grueling 3/4 mile hike up to the lake with two kids, but the kids did great.
Jay got to ride the carousel at the mall this week after running a few errands. I (dad) took this picture in between stuffing my face with a Burger King value meal 🙂